When I was little, I was scared of having a bad thought (whether it be a negative opinion about someone or having sex or whatever it may be) because I believed that my dead grandfather and dead stepbrother could hear all of my thoughts. That was not the end of it though. I always felt them, looking right over me and shaking their heads, whenever I acted in a way that I would never want my parents to know. Of course it could have just been my conscience but it does make me wonder. When an individual dies, can they hear our thoughts and see everything we do? Are they by any chance sitting right besides us, shaking their heads when we happen to mess up?
I have been taught to believe that once an individual is dead, they are gone for good but I do not believe that is the case. I believe some people get reincarnated, because they have a certain path to fulfill and experience while those who have already done this become guardians to their loved ones. Even though I did not know him well I think my stepbrother is trying to guide me along, so that I succeed and while that could be good, it also feels like I am disappointing a lot more people.
Or am I just, in all actuality, disappointing myself?
